Why you look down on me?

I know something, I don't know whether its good or bad,
but I'm learning, bit by bit, step by step,
but why you look down on me?
like I did something unforgivable?
the spilled water cannot retaken by any means,
I understand that matter clearly,
but can I filled it from another source?
I don't believe the same second chance will come,
but can I make it up to you?
each of my explanations are lies to you,
yet I'm just telling the truth,
and still you look down on me,
each mistake I make had lessons to learn,
till now I'm still searching and learning to understand it,
where, when, how it went wrong,
I'm just really sad, but no one can see me,
because everyone also look down on me.
like unforgivable sin...